Is the fear. The fear of a miscarriage. The fear of doing something wrong while pregnant. The fear of something going wrong in labor. I thought it would go away once my baby was born but now it’s worse. He isn’t protected in my stomach anymore. He’s sick right now and I hate not being able to understand what’s wrong. He can’t just tell me he doesn’t feel well.
There was the fear of dropping him. There was the fear of my husband going back to work and me being alone. There is the fear of SIDS. There is the fear of not giving him enough food to grow. The fear of raising him right. The fear of not loving him enough.
The worst part about having a baby is the fear. 18 to life.